Are You Suffering?

Most of us are, but we can’t admit it to ourselves. Suffering takes many forms, and for most of us it involves a world where change is constant, and the loss of people, treasured values, and a complex world is omnipresent. We don't like to admit this to our consciousness, that our hearts are hurting so we keep ourselves busy, get involved in perpetual motion and search for that physician, the nurse, the shaman or healer that is going to take this aching loneliness out of our bones.

Suffering happens with transitions to change. Since change is a constant, this suffering is painful to stabilize. Remember how long it took you to get over a loved one’s death? Or think of the first time you lost a loved one and reali Read More

I’ll Never Get This

I never glimpsed the inner core of my mom, and I don’t have her stories I can read in a book to celebrate her birthday today. I do have her poems, and I’ll make that into a book. But if I could have anything from Mom, it’d be her stories, the heart of her stories from her perspective.

Our relationship was rocky at best. I loved my mom, but I kept my distance because we were so much alike. I hated how sensitive she was and could feel peoples’ feelings. Yes, she was empathetic, and so am I. That means she took in peoples’ feelings and processed them and moved to such Read More

Eavesdropper

I work intensely in creating and writing, managing and wearing many hats as a small business entrepreneur. How do I energize myself?

I go to one of my favorite neighborhood restaurants two to three times a week. I need a break, and it’s not too far to drive, and the traffic doesn’t suck to get there and back to my workspace in my home. This break is an improvement to me compulsively working in panic mode and feeling like there isn’t enough time during the day. We all feel like that right? I want time to work for me, so I make nourishment a priority. Novel concept right? Well, wh Read More

Solve The Problem

What’s The Problem?

Your future family and their kids knowing you after you’ve been long gone.

I went to pick Xavier up from Day Care yesterday. Wednesday afternoon is my Gramma time with him. I also had a presentation at my first retirement community  (yes, it went well) and I had books and a poster board of themes in the back seat.

I put Xavier in the car seat, and he said, “What’s That?” and pointed to a husband and wife book I had done a few years back. He didn’t wait for me to answer, he grabbed it and looked at it for a full four minutes before putting it down. He didn� Read More

Precious

I snuck downstairs at 3:30 in the morning. What am I doing up at this hour? Besides wanting to finish Rose’s book so that her son could proof it. Besides writing my blog | newsletter for this morning, I had to go outside to see. I had to. I disarmed my house alarm. I let Stubby Wubby; my big fat Grandfather cat hobble outside for a little bit of fresh air. He doesn’t roam too far and trusting that the coyotes wouldn’t get him because that’s always a factor. Locked the door and then went to the back door and opened it up.

I snuck outside to the back part of the porch which is Grant’s workshop space. I wondered in worried tones if she would be there. And, she was there.

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