Beyond

Grant and I made it a point to take in my birthday, my sixtieth year with joy. We took the ferry over from Edmonds to Kingston the same time I took it when I worked at Poulsbo Elementary.

We drove to Hansville, to Point No Point Lighthouse and watched the fishermen trying to catch salmon. We walked the beach and saw Seattle from a distance in the fog. We didn’t look too closely at the large city in the mist. It was irrelevant for today. We stopped at Hansgrill Hansville Grocery for a sit. I had a latte and Grant had Mexican coke and a fudgsicle. It was only te Read More

Are You Suffering?

Most of us are, but we can’t admit it to ourselves. Suffering takes many forms, and for most of us it involves a world where change is constant, and the loss of people, treasured values, and a complex world is omnipresent. We don't like to admit this to our consciousness, that our hearts are hurting so we keep ourselves busy, get involved in perpetual motion and search for that physician, the nurse, the shaman or healer that is going to take this aching loneliness out of our bones.

Suffering happens with transitions to change. Since change is a constant, this suffering is painful to stabilize. Remember how long it took you to get over a loved one’s death? Or think of the first time you lost a loved one and reali Read More

I’ll Never Get This

I never glimpsed the inner core of my mom, and I don’t have her stories I can read in a book to celebrate her birthday today. I do have her poems, and I’ll make that into a book. But if I could have anything from Mom, it’d be her stories, the heart of her stories from her perspective.

Our relationship was rocky at best. I loved my mom, but I kept my distance because we were so much alike. I hated how sensitive she was and could feel peoples’ feelings. Yes, she was empathetic, and so am I. That means she took in peoples’ feelings and processed them and moved to such Read More

Eavesdropper

I work intensely in creating and writing, managing and wearing many hats as a small business entrepreneur. How do I energize myself?

I go to one of my favorite neighborhood restaurants two to three times a week. I need a break, and it’s not too far to drive, and the traffic doesn’t suck to get there and back to my workspace in my home. This break is an improvement to me compulsively working in panic mode and feeling like there isn’t enough time during the day. We all feel like that right? I want time to work for me, so I make nourishment a priority. Novel concept right? Well, wh Read More

Solve The Problem

What’s The Problem?

Your future family and their kids knowing you after you’ve been long gone.

I went to pick Xavier up from Day Care yesterday. Wednesday afternoon is my Gramma time with him. I also had a presentation at my first retirement community  (yes, it went well) and I had books and a poster board of themes in the back seat.

I put Xavier in the car seat, and he said, “What’s That?” and pointed to a husband and wife book I had done a few years back. He didn’t wait for me to answer, he grabbed it and looked at it for a full four minutes before putting it down. He didn� Read More